work will consume me. I fear that I won't be good enough for all life has to throw at me. If I'm struggling with this, how will I respond to life's truly hard challenges? Everyone likes to think that we understand life, but really nobody does. Next year will be my last year of high school and I'll have to start applying to college. This semester will set the ground work if I succeed or not.
However, I'm not necessarily scared, just fearful. What am I excited for? It would be hard to pinpoint just a few things. What am I most excited? I'm excited to get my AICE diploma (if all things go well with exams), I'm excited for the completion of my Junior year, and I'm excited to apply to colleges (no matter how scared I am at the same time). So much is happening in such a short amount of time and it's incredibly terrifying as well as exciting. All I know it that this semester will be my most difficult and exciting yet and I hope I can make the best of it.
Vincent, I understand you deeply on the procrastination. I'll change later.
ReplyDeleteVinny, I like how much effort it seems you put into this. Reading this caused me to think about my future and current lifestyle as well as the internal battles you're facing in your own life.
ReplyDeleteI wish you'd gone into more depth on "life's truly hard challenges" because what I think of, i.e. balancing time with family vs. time with friends or being sure to visit enough colleges that I know of where I want to end up or finding a career that would also allow me to have a family or deciding whether I want to run cross country in college, is probably different than what you think of.
I like how you brought up being excited about potentially receiving your AICE diploma and how you're excited about applying to colleges but I also wish you had then continued with more information about why you're also scared about applying. From there, I could either relate to you more or I could see things from your point of view, which would help me understand the rest of your writing.
Very nice, well-thought out blog entry, Vinny! I enjoyed reading.
Your structure is a little wonky, I believe it would sound even more fearful if you talked about your past school life and how your a straight "A" student and now your fearing if you'll keep that streak.
ReplyDeleteI can relate to your procrastination and also your fear that work will consume me. If I don't cure myself of procrastination then my work will pile up higher and higher and lead to late nights trying to catch up on work.
ReplyDeleteProcrastination is terrible. I do it way too much. I fear of the possibilities that could happen even though there may not be a huge chance that it will happen. The small chance will get to you.. run
ReplyDeleteAs a whole, I enjoyed reading your blog post. You provided some interesting insight about these times of change of which we are all going through in one way, shape or form. I found what you had to say about procrastination to be relate-able since I can guarantee we all have been there at some point in life. If I had to give you one piece of constructive criticism, I would make your post a little longer and more detailed in the future. Aside from that, great first post.
ReplyDeleteThe fear that work will entirely consume every activity is a very relatable fear for me. I run from the idea of having to be drowned out in labor for the rest of my life. I'm doing my time in this enslaving environment only to give me a bigger opportunity to be a slave for more money with a full education.
ReplyDeleteGreat intro and explanation, as well as transition, but what about insight and emotions? I also fear I will not be able to live up to what life throws at me.
ReplyDeleteI can relate to you in many ways. I agree with Will that your structure is a little off, other than that I found your blog to be very good.
ReplyDeleteI relate to your fear that work will consume you. And I'm really surprised that you fear that you wont be good enough. I can promise that you'll be better than good enough. Good luck to you and your procrastination issues.
ReplyDeleteThis was so good! You showed a different aspect of your personality and it was very eloquently, yet bluntly, written.
ReplyDeleteListen, procrastination is such a hard battle to win. It's something I know many people struggle with it, including me. Just in my past Junior year, I've finally come to terms that procrastination isn't such an awful thing, if it's in moderation.
ReplyDeleteThis is a very personal post, and I appreciate you sharing your intimate details of stresses and fears with the class. It takes a lot to come out and say things like this, and I think it's pertinent that you continue to be as open as you are on here. You've come a long way from the freshman you were when we first met. You still hang on the edge of edginess, but you're still true to yourself.
Stay true, and open, and you're do just fine in the real-world.
Vincent, I share your fear of overwhelming amounts of work and applying for college next year. I also agree with Olivia when she said that you should go more in depth on "life's truly hard challenges". Overall, this post is great! I didn’t believe you at first when you said, “I fear that I won't be good enough for all life has to throw at me.” because you have so much to offer. You’re intelligent beyond words and you’re helpful. I’m sure that whatever life brings you, you’ll be fine.
ReplyDeleteProcrastination is never a good idea.
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